Oh gosh. I may ramble today because I am in the midst of wondering just what God wants from me. To actually put this out in public is a big step.
Have you been in that place? Where you KNOW that you KNOW He has lit up a place in your heart and yet hasn’t told you any details about what to do with it?
Yeah, that place.
It’s a place that makes you quiver with anticipation, wondering what your awesome God is going to do.
It can be frustrating. You know there is going to be a battle, because the good stuff is almost always on the other side of a fight.
And most of all, you just want to get started already. But if there is one thing I have learned, it’s that God is rarely in as much of a hurry as we are. And so we wait. He has purpose in this waiting – to draw us closer to Him, to make us focus on His voice, to bring us into deeper relationship.
For me, it is a love/hate time. I love the drawing in. But oh I hate the wait. And the being vulnerable. Ugh, it was hard to get over myself and start writing. What if nobody reads it? What if nobody cares? And so on. But I have to step out in obedience, regardless of what other people think. That’s hard, but there is a whole Bible filled with stories of people who stepped out in much scarier ways.
Anyway. Last Sunday we were sitting in church listening to a missionary tell amazing, wonderful stories of what God is doing on around the world to reach people. It is dangerous, crazy, awesome work. I am in awe of missionaries.
We have always given to various missions and not thought much about it. We like to give. But Sunday I was struck with just how much is actually needed to send these people out. It is a massive amount, and our speaker was bluntly and refreshingly honest about the cost.
It was at that moment when I felt the tingle. Holy Spirit was trying to get my attention and I knew what it was about. He was saying to me, “I have not called you to go out, but to help fund those who do”.
There was instant excitement and agreement in my spirit. A fluttering in my heart.
Now, I believe that God sets us up for things well before we have any clue as to the need it may fulfill. And I believe that 3 years ago He had me meet up with a gal named Kayla, who taught me how to blog and do social media and learn some business skills geared toward network marketing.
He has had me laying a foundation and growing as a person, in preparation for the dream work He has for me – funding missionaries.
You see, when you start any business you learn all about your “why” – your reason for staying in it when times get tough or boredom sets in. Your why has to be bigger than any discouragement that will come your way. It has to drive you forward. I have been struggling for a few months with my “why” and wondering why I put so much time into it. Yes, having something to do with my time, making extra money, and truly loving essential oils are good things but they weren’t quite big enough to be MY why.
I think God gave me a whole new WHY last Sunday. And it is BIG. I want this blog and business to someday be able to give out thousands of dollars a month to bless missions.
I don’t have a plan yet, other than to keep doing what I do each day and listen for His voice. I know is that He is a Big God, and He is the Abundant Creator and He will provide in due time. All I have to do is believe and obey.
In the meantime, I am going to start by committing my next 2 paychecks fully to missions. When anyone purchases a Premium Starter Kit, that will be a minimum of $50 that you get to give as part of my income!
To be continued…
P.S. This is a brave woman that we know from our old church, and have supported for awhile – her home was broken into last week and the thieves took her bike, her computer, phone and other important items. We would love to help her with some extra finances http://allison-rupert.blogspot.com.br/2016/02/lost-in-light.html
P.P.S I would love your prayers for this endeavor!